You were angry.
Your hurtful words just flew.
I could feel the sting.
You said I disappointed you.
I was silent.
As your anger pelted me.
I was silent.
And I just let you be.
I just let you rage
Releasing all your pain
Did that make you feel better?
Tell me, what did you gain?
Are we closer now?
No, the opposite is true.
Wondering do you love me?
Wondering do I love you?
Is there any shred of love left?
Any for us to restore?
Was I was silent
Because I don’t care anymore.
Each time you hurt me
I changed
With each lie
I rearranged
I got tougher, harder, meaner,
I grew a thicker shell
I grew wary and untrusting
Frankly, mad as HELL
And now, I disappoint YOU!
How exactly can that be?
Was it while working two jobs?
To provide for you and me?
Or maybe it was my strength
You leaned on without concerns.
Is that why I disappoint you
And your anger burns?
I was silent.
Your words really hit their mark.
I was silent.
Broken in the dark.
GatherStones 
Such a sad, lonely posting. Sometimes I wish to share my life with someone again, but more and more I’m remembering to treasure the calm and quiet of my life at the moment. There is more than one way to feel lonely.
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Amen – so true, lonely really doesn’t reflect the number of people in or out of one’s life. Treasure the calm
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Words indeed are a two edged sword. Sometimes I dream of living on my own and how much simpler that would be. But…. there is lonely, and there is being alone in a crowd, or a relationship. I do hope and pray that things will get better for you both.
BTW, just on a side note, did you get the emails I sent you last month? I’ve had some IT issues, and we have been away too. I’m hoping I haven’t missed anything in my inbox.
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Thank you for the encouragement, I will double check my email – but I don’t believe I did
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I will re-send 🙂
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